I never really considered myself to be a bitter person, and usually when I have an issue with someone I talk to them so that I can move on from it but today I began to reflect on myself after seeing someone unexpected walk into my church today. This was someone that I had been really close to, and for whatever reason, they decided that I wasn't important enough to keep as their friend. I felt so bitter and angry sitting there in church and I was really surprised at myself. I began to think about why I could possibly feel so bitter and I realized that when I let someone into my life and they majorly disappoint me and make no effort to redeem themselves, it causes me to become bitter. Looking closely, I realized that there are a few people that I feel this way towards. I could forgive someone if they were sorry for hurting me, but some people don't care. In a way, staying bitter keeps them a part my life. If I forgive them and move on, then it's like we were never friends. I know that sounds funny. I want this person to care. I want them to wish we were still friends because I do. But they don't, and they never will.
I guess I just don't know what the next step is. Now that I've identified myself as holding bitter feelings towards certain people what do I do? They don't care that I have been hurt, and these feelings only hurt me.
Somehow I have to just release it all and let it go.
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i know how you feel. it's a hard place to be.
I recently made the choice to just cut those people from my life, to let go once and for all and to stop wishing they would suddenly care about me like I cared about them. I have been happier than I have been in years since I made that choice. And when I see those people now, I don't get angry, I have no problem being nice to them, and I walk away and don't think about it for hours after. Yeah, I am a man, but I am just as human, I do understand.
I generally just eat a cookie - not too good for my body but I feel better!
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